Sunday, January 31, 2016

Applesauce Pancakes

My sweetie is on a limited diet right now, due to a nickel allergy. Because nickel is the third most common element on earth, nickel is in just about everything we eat.

This morning, i made pancakes for him, using one cup of flour, one cup of yogurt, and one cup of homemade applesauce. The batter was thick, and the pancakes tasted like applesauce with a crust. Delicious! Add a touch of maple syrup from the sugar maple trees in the woods behind our house, and it's a locavore breakfast.

I'm beginning a month-long self-retreat tomorrow, here at home, in our guest suite, which i call The Sweet Retreat. I could call it a locavore retreat because it's so local. I'm putting myself on a limited diet--no cyber-communication, no reading, no writing, no phone. And the darnedest thing is that the mind becomes very sweet. It turns out that I'm not as crusty as i thought.

Saturday, January 30, 2016

Thawing the Frozen

The flowering kale on the front step has had a long run. I bought them the day before Thanksgiving, and, due to our nearly snowless winter, they have looked pretty good for 2 whole months. But it is time to bid them farewell, except that they are frozen in place.

This is just like our habits, which we adopt at a younger age because they are pretty or funny or sassy. Then, as we become older, some of those habits just don't look so good on us anymore. Imagine if you were still as loud and self-conscious and self-loathing as a teenager! No thanks. But some of those old habits are frozen in place, and they show up at inconvenient times. They are one of the nubs around which our ego coagulates.

It's time to let go. But how? The thaw happens, not by kicking at that old frozen-in-place habit. Breathe. Relax. Release the wanting. It will return. Watch it return. Watch it leave again, maybe for just one second. Notice that.

I'm waiting for the frozen flowering kale to thaw.

Friday, January 29, 2016

Last Christmas Present

Bill's last Christmas present arrived in the mail yesterday. One of those little gizmos you attach to your wallet, your phone, your keys, your dog, so that, when you lose them, you can find them.*

Fair, the cleaning lady, brought me a present yesterday--2 gigantic poinsettias. The owner of the house she cleaned earlier in the day was about to throw them out, but she said she would take them.

This was our welcome home present from our vacation in the Caribbean. I feel like the tropics followed us home. A final Christmas present.

Thanks to the generosity of Fair.

* For the further adventures of Bill's lost wallet, read Lost but Found.

Saturday, January 16, 2016


I first met a pomelo in Thailand a few years ago. It looks like a really big grapefruit, but the fruit is sweet and not at all sour or bitter. The pomelo skin is quite thick. In Thailand, they are sold already peeled and sectioned.

Pomelos are now available at my local food coop for $1.99 a pound, and each pomelo weighs almost 2 pounds. They are expensive, but they are worth it.

I actually aspire to be like a pomelo. Maybe i could take it as my totem fruit? Thick-skinned, in the sense of not taking criticism or insult personally, yet sweet and mild at heart.