"Ralph had 9 siblings," i say. "During the Great Depression. There were no second helpings."
I never realized that i also eat fast, until my sweetie pointed it out to me. It's a habit that i haven't tried to break.
For most of my adult life, i thought i was my habits. I am a person who.... Eventually i glimpsed awareness, and for a second, saw the lack of self. Habits do not make a self, it turns out.
I lay sunflower seeds on the railing of the deck for the birds, and when I am not looking, a squirrel sneaks up on the railing and gobbles. He sees me coming. He eats faster. I open the door. He eats faster. I open the storm door, he starts to run. "Get out of here, Ralph!" i say to the squirrel who is scampering across the snow.
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