When i say i have zero fear about this breast cancer / lumpectomy today, some friends think i'm in denial. Other friends say, "You're so brave" or "You're so strong." Strong has nothing to do with it. I am not taking a stance nor standing against cancer nor standing up to it. I am surrendering.
I surrender to Life as it is unfolding.
Right this minute, not even the doctor knows, really, what he will find. He has made some educated guesses. I surrender to his expertise.
Not even the doctor knows what my follow-up treatment will be. "It all depends" on what he finds. If he doesn't know yet, i don't need to know.
For years i have ended my meditation with May i see and accept things as they really are.
Today i see that many things are unknown. May i accept not knowing what cannot yet be known.
No worries. No fear.